I've got the butterflies all over again!! I'm finding it hard to sleep and I'm stressing out!! I'm worried about my finances and how little time I'm going to have!! And I'm happy as all hell to have these old friends back!!
It's never easy starting a new recording project. I have to organize my whole life around getting the album done (if I actually want to finish it in any appreciable time). I have to seriously look at how much the whole thing is going to cost: demo'ing, arranging, finding/ working with/ paying for the producer, recording, mixing, mastering, photographs, album artwork, pressing, promotion, touring, and misc!! Yeah, it's a huge financial commitment!! All of that while trying to craft the best material I can and get my artistic vision across and studying dance, acting, and other artistic pursuits to better my craft and pay the bills. It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it. But, I wouldn't want to have it any other way. I've found a strength and stamina that I never would have believed I had while I was at Humber College studying Jazz, bussing it to open mic after open mic, and back up singing for Jully Black, and Joni NehRita. Back then I could only marvel at these amazing musicians creating their own visions and letting the crowds into their secret worlds. How would I ever be able to get my world crafted enough for you to want to come and kick it with me!?! Enter the butterflies, insomnia, stress, and lack of time. Each of those were met by creativity, innovation, stamina, and love. That last four letter word is what really got me through all of the elements involved with my last release 'Learning To Fight', and why I'm happy to have the adversity back in my life:)
I'm actually very very blessed to be able to live a life where I can express my creative freedom and have you all join me. And while I might pout, kick, and scream at times there is absolutely nowhere else I'd rather be than right here starting my new album;) For all of you starting something new in your lives GUNG-HO!!!
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